stressed

stressed.. cant breathe..God, save me pls..

stressed- accused of commtting crime--huh?

well, this month, surely everyone will be bz applying this n tat, its either you go straight to college, or still awaiting answers from your scholarhsip applciation. Well, i'm the one, still working on the application. pity me.. i relaly cant sleep everynight. so stressed.. thinking, thinking thinking... very afraid n anxious.. worried tat i might left out some points or important matter... until, now the forms i completed, i still havent post them.. i really am suffocating... i never realised that even after graduated from high school, life could still be so hectic and stressful... pls give me back my no-worries-life.... omg... pls cum back acumanametata..

n den, i chop sth myself at skul, the kerani say, hey you, saya boleh tangkap kamu tau.. you sedang langgar peraturan, tapi, saya tolong kamu, saya takkan beritau pengetua..... i wonder.. did she even mean.. any line tat she said... who cares.. wow, i'm about to be a convict man.. how cool... i wish it would be that simple... =.= these ppl have a pea brain man... nvr think out of their puny box.. (amazingly, her big huge body could fit in).. well.. she should learn to shut up one day.. hopefully

how i feel

yup, it has been long
well, first thing first.. i got straight A's, yet, i wasn't quite satisfied. you can say i'm insantiable, cos i'm not.. i juz couldn't believe tat, all my life, i wont win sum ppl.. i juz can accept and comply with it.. ya ya ya.. i heard ppl saying she is out of her mind, very to compare, like to win, thinks all bout winning. Ya, right, as if you dun have a problem. Pls, dun condemn me until that extend. i hv feelings too, okay? you're fine with my results, but i'm not, why should you care, and give comment? Ok, frens, is still frens.. dun cross oer tat border. sumtimes, i dun feel like talking to you all.. anyone of you. all you know is hurting me.

n, i still wanna say, you have problems too, okay? when we tell you your prob, wat u say? you will only say, "tat's me, i cant change." its a very irresponsible word to use. 1st, you nvr care bout our feelings, 2nd, i really felt angry to hear tat. i dunno la, i nvr can fight win you 1, n you will not listen (maybe you depreciate me, or contempt me-who knows) so i alredy dun feel like talking more to you. you like to be like tat, is your option, since you have been living like tat since dunno when.n i know clearly i hv no right, n no thx, i dun wan it either..

no offence, i'm jus releasing some anger here, juz take it as you nvr seen it if you do/did.