lost

i dunn wat i want to pursue now.. yesterday went to ucsi with py, botak n hx. was exposed to pharmacy, i suddenly wonder, is this what i want? Hearing what i might be learning in four years, i felt extreme boredom and uncertain for my future, thanks to hx... kept putting off my flame for pharmacy.. but i oso wonder, if i really want pharmacy...

now, i lost n confused with the sequence of courses and uni's i put in ipta application..

oh no... i am so lost!!!

ppl around advised to go overseas... but i dun even know where to start.. how i wish, everything is all done for me and i just need to walk the path.. but, things are not like tat, i need to make my own decision, which i am affraid it might not be the right one for me..

T.T lost..

stpm results

OOOMMMMGGGG~!!!! not having any intention to brag about my results, but... i got 4 flat for stpm!!!!! 4.0 !!! omg!! omg !! omg!!! so happy until, i non'stop toking today!!!! seriously.. with my best fren.. ah wei...haha.. we 2 tok damn alot today... really non stop..

i'm happy for py n hx too!!! both 4.o scorer...

n i am sad for hee zhern, he is very brilliant n smart, although we r enemies, but i muz admit he is a very gud person too... haiz, dun understand y this happen to him... but, he will definitely do very well in his life..

n i conclude tat, i am very lucky. i dare not say i am very smart or hardworking, because i bet others are smarter n put in more effort (since i always go watch movie, karaoke, n shopping like almost every month few times). moreover, i did not do my papers very well. I left one entire question for maths paper 2, 17 marks.. cried like shit tat day... den, chemistry, paper 1, cant finish 5 questions, pleaded the inspector to give me extra time, so fortunate my wish was granted.. lastly, pa paper 1 i tembak quite a lot...

i am so lucky.. i wonder what good deed have i done to have this wonderful thing happening to me... i must do something back in return.. i nvr felt so grateful in my life, n i am very proud of myself too.

STPM

AAARRRGGGHHH!H!!!! left around 1 more day!!!!!! dunno wat to think of... N oso very lost... T.T

i juz found out today... ruan jing tian got gf... haiz emo.. i so luv him la... T.T

New Job!!

getting new job!! only one sat and sun, working in giant usj. some stay free thing.. 10 to 10. very long ar... but 1 day RM 80, quite gud la. the bad thing is need to go for training, in damansara.. =.= juz to go there oso feel like dying.. l8r ask mom c how.. sat n sun i oso nth to do.. nth wrong la accepting this job.. but a bit not worth lo, only 1 week. sum project 1 month le. 1 training for 1 month's job, so gud.. if every job only 1 week, summor need go training.. then can die lo.. =.= tired..

this time is sumthing like sanitary pad. for stay free company.. : ) shud be sth easier than maggie mee chicken stock n liquid thing.. *hope very hard*

sumhow i feel like lucas now, haha cos he work the shit out of himself to earn money.. i'm doing the same too.. hehe

MY QUEEN 2

The reason i so liked this drama becos it's abit dif from other love series..

this is a love story between a 33 yr old woman with a 25 yr old boy.. haha... very very unusual... yet so sweet!!! so romantic!!! oh man... i'm stucked in this imaginary world... again... save me.. T.T

MY QUEEN

OMG!!! taiwanese drama is so damn nice.. it has been out for quite long already, but i just had time to watch it recently.. I am so overwhelmed now, and can't get out of the drama.. it's too sweet and perfect... damn empty now i feel.. side effects.. becoming zombie la me... T.T.. tat's the thing i hate about watching lovey dovey series, especially those involving handsome guys... it really takes my soul away.. leaving one empty shell... =.=

gud oso la.. temporarily take me away from stpm anxiety... results coming out this thurs..

tml start working again.. sad la... hope i get over this wooziness soon... i love you!! Lucas!!! so so much!!! you're the most perfect person in this world!!! becos You don't exist!! haha... this is the gud thing bout taiwan drama.. get to see handsome guys that are like really perfect. they are smart, handsome, loyal summor romantic.. where got boys these perfect 1 wor.. haha... after watching guys such perfect, u won't have mood to get in relationship d, cos no1 around is this perfect.. haha...

I so so so love you, Lucas.. How i wish i am shan wu shuang... hehe.. :P

I in this stage where in mandarin is called = fa hua chi... something like serious day dreaming bout sum non'existent person..

but i think i am still normal la for now, cos i used to get crazy about anime character.. i really think tat is worse... cos its not even human...

i'm 20 d, i tot i won't get so high with love dramas.. but.. my mentality is still the same as i was in primary 6. i rmbr that yr, meteor garden taiwanese version was jus out. i got so crazy bout it until i lived like a zombie for few months before i recovered from that wooziness.. hehe.. stupid me... wish i can recover soon enough!!

Oh... Lucas.. so handsome.. i will do anything juz to get u.. hehe :p