Tagged

So happened, i have on9 mood today, and found out i have been tagged, so touched that there is still one person, rmbr me on9... sob sob, (basically that's cos i have not on9 for a while)..

The 6 person i wanna tag
1. ah wei
2. mei wah
3. sharon
4. erm..
5. erm..
6. erm..
Sorry bro, my other frens have all been tagged, n i do not hv much frens, (whom i kno) with blogs.. (excuse :p- i;m juz lazy to track dem down)

2. 6 things i'm passionate about:
movies
music
olympics opening ceremony
food
food
food
(because of famine 30, my craving for food increases 100 folds)-- that's y i hv gained so much weght.. n tat explains y, no boys kau me lately.. SOB SOB!! WAAA!!

3. 6 things i say too often
CHicken ( cos i dun wan to swear when i'm pissed off)
fucker
ma de
mCH ( too rude to be decoded)
my god ( cos lately things jus got out off hand)
omg

4.6 books i hv read recently..
none (oops)

5. 6 songs i hv listened over n over again
jason mraz- i'm yours... nice song. that's all folks.. sorry for letting time being ahead of me so much...

6. 6 things i learnt in the past years
dont be bossy
respect others
appreciate your fren
dun keep your feelings from your frens, ( especially the ones you feel bad about)
to get sum1 u like, mus be bold enough (ps: dun be like pig and toothpick)
dun get laid easily, especially for girls, cos its a one- way trip..

It has been a while

Very long, i hv left my blogging life.. or do i even have 1?? why do i hv a sudden whim now?well, everyone around me is writing, n i hope they kno wat's going around me too....

Well, i had a dream last night... Haha.. Forgot to tell ah wei... Its about moon... I dreamt that he still likes me... Guess i still cannot get through him, but, not the him now, its the him last time... So sad to reminisce these stufff...... I miss those days a lot... one of my best memories.. sth that is so near yet so far... one day, i wanna get that feeling back... ( nt neccesary from him). But, now i hv a lot of htings to do, plus, no 1 is even near to my type in Form 6... So sad... Haha..

But, things seem dif fr ah wei... haha... wahaha... so funny..... y she will even like him.... he is the least espected 1 lo.... haha... fate la... wat to say...

N den hor, today Jee Keng, became our committee, out of no where... wonder wat we shud do to David when he found out... Hopefully things work out this week, n i can becum less busy and everything runs smoother... very sick of running up down n skipping clases... if things maintains like tat i wil kill myself.

Another happy thing today is that i hv finally been offered the scholarships from government. i missed the JPA, and even the apeal, finally, they offer my scholarship now. Rm200 per month.. Its a very gud news within these few months...

Today was quite hectic.. after skul, 5R meeting, then straight away to HELP college, give 30 hour famine forms, then tat ben ar, told me he doesnt hv address of all participants, oh.. so frustrated.. this thing is still not dne.... next next week is holiday already, n if we dun get this done soon, how can we go... so frustrated... Argghhhhh!!!!! Then, ah wei's interview, not bad the employer, n his children llok exactly like him...(of coz)... n its kinda an easy money... jus guide the children thru their homeworks n sum revision books, one month 600.00 or more... but, y din i take this offer? cos i'm affraid that i cannot catch up the pace of my life.. My footsteps are forced to be quicker...

Catch me when i fall.. Guat Guat...

stressed

stressed.. cant breathe..God, save me pls..

stressed- accused of commtting crime--huh?

well, this month, surely everyone will be bz applying this n tat, its either you go straight to college, or still awaiting answers from your scholarhsip applciation. Well, i'm the one, still working on the application. pity me.. i relaly cant sleep everynight. so stressed.. thinking, thinking thinking... very afraid n anxious.. worried tat i might left out some points or important matter... until, now the forms i completed, i still havent post them.. i really am suffocating... i never realised that even after graduated from high school, life could still be so hectic and stressful... pls give me back my no-worries-life.... omg... pls cum back acumanametata..

n den, i chop sth myself at skul, the kerani say, hey you, saya boleh tangkap kamu tau.. you sedang langgar peraturan, tapi, saya tolong kamu, saya takkan beritau pengetua..... i wonder.. did she even mean.. any line tat she said... who cares.. wow, i'm about to be a convict man.. how cool... i wish it would be that simple... =.= these ppl have a pea brain man... nvr think out of their puny box.. (amazingly, her big huge body could fit in).. well.. she should learn to shut up one day.. hopefully

how i feel

yup, it has been long
well, first thing first.. i got straight A's, yet, i wasn't quite satisfied. you can say i'm insantiable, cos i'm not.. i juz couldn't believe tat, all my life, i wont win sum ppl.. i juz can accept and comply with it.. ya ya ya.. i heard ppl saying she is out of her mind, very to compare, like to win, thinks all bout winning. Ya, right, as if you dun have a problem. Pls, dun condemn me until that extend. i hv feelings too, okay? you're fine with my results, but i'm not, why should you care, and give comment? Ok, frens, is still frens.. dun cross oer tat border. sumtimes, i dun feel like talking to you all.. anyone of you. all you know is hurting me.

n, i still wanna say, you have problems too, okay? when we tell you your prob, wat u say? you will only say, "tat's me, i cant change." its a very irresponsible word to use. 1st, you nvr care bout our feelings, 2nd, i really felt angry to hear tat. i dunno la, i nvr can fight win you 1, n you will not listen (maybe you depreciate me, or contempt me-who knows) so i alredy dun feel like talking more to you. you like to be like tat, is your option, since you have been living like tat since dunno when.n i know clearly i hv no right, n no thx, i dun wan it either..

no offence, i'm jus releasing some anger here, juz take it as you nvr seen it if you do/did.